I was recently in a situation of close residence with a family member for about a week. I was able to witness her natural tendency to say what she thinks and speak from her heart. She mentioned in the course of conversation how overwhelmed she is at thinking about what Christ went through on the cross for her and that she can't even comprehend it or think about it as it is just so horrible. I have heard her say this before, but this time was the time to affect me so profoundly. I have those same thoughts and feelings when I think about what Christ went through. She's never seen "The Passion of the Christ" movie nor wants to. I get that! I saw it once and even though I bought the video after that it has remained unopened and it was many years ago that I bought it. So what's the big deal?
The big deal for me is that moment of personally relating to another that somehow seems to lighten your load. God does that! Is that not awesome? I always viewed my shrinking at the image of Christ on the cross and all that leads up to it as weakness in myself and it produced deep inner shame. This was embedded in my psyche and I believed the lie. Jesus has artfully removed this lie and I am free to just be who He made me to be without the added shame that never needed to be there in the first place.